You can sleep when your dead. Live now.

You broke my heart long ago
the pieces laid all around
and slowly i picked them up
among the cracked and dirty ground.

I’m so sorry, you said.
Never again will i hurt you.
how foolish and stupid i am…
To think that was true.

I let you walk in and out of my life
Like I were a revolving door.
You might as well stab my heart with a knife,
and leave me like the pieces on the floor.

Most nights I still dream of your face,
sleeping next to the one I love.
Its just something i cant seem to erase…
to you i was never enough.

Just found out Electric Daisy carnival will be in the east coast this year.

I clicked on the promo video and my nipples seriously got hard….

I WANT TO GO TO EDC SO FUCKING BAD.

I want to get a tattoo reminding me where i came from. EVEN though i’m from NASHUA(aka..trashua), NEW HAMPSHIRE. I figured getting the latitude and longitude of where the hospital i was born in nashua would suffice. It has meaning and in a weird way it also lets my mother be with me no matter where she is because she birthed me. if not for her the latitude and longitude has no meaning to me…

i have_____my____ 29 times today. Again. after 5 years of not doing anything like this….

I just want my mom to call me to check up on me.

I want my brother to say “hey mel, whats up…want to come hang out?” like he did when i lived in florida…

I want my boyfriend to do dishes and cook dinner…stop playing video games for hours and hang out with me for hours instead.

All i wanted in life is people to care about me, is that such a hard thing to ask for?

Even in an emergency today my mom hung up and my brother ignored my phonecall…my boyfriend left me in boston by myself with no money to take the train home….my life has been falling apart since the day i was born….

i’m afraid if i dont do something to make myself happy soon….my life will finally collapse.

YOU went out of your way to contact me.

YOU were the one who confessed love for me and wanting to be with me.

I was the one who had to act like it didnt bother me….Like it didnt completely throw me off or make me care a teeny bit. I was the one who had to hide it and pretend like it never happened.

Now your girlfriend is messaging my boyfriend on facebook saying i’m trying to get back with you which is completely false and i’m terrified he will believe her.

When i thought you couldn’t fuck my life up any more than you already did….then all this shit happens and you arent even man enough to tell her the truth…that you dont want to be with her. Just because she makes you miserable doesnt mean you can message me or call me…you made your choices now stick to them and be a man.